Does This Bus Stop at 82nd Street?

Monday nights are always the same aren't they? You return from work, frazzled, collapse on the sofa and try to figure out how it's not Friday already. Then you give up trying to figure it out, sigh and get on with life.

For me, getting on with life usually starts with busting out ye olde laptop to see what's going on in the world. A quick glance at Facebook, Twitter, my RSS reading list and the news. But this Monday I didn't make it past Facebook. On opening my news feed page, I was greeted by the artwork from Bruce Springsteen's Born to Run album cover. It had been shared between two of my Sydney friends, with a note: "2 days to go!!!"

Whaaaaaa?

My memory flicked back to several months earlier when I'd received an email telling me Bruce was going to be in town - but I had no money at the time and it'd totally slipped my mind. Crap. I've always loved Bruce, and since watching the BBC coverage of him heading Glastonbury back in 2009, he's been on my 'People To See Live Before They/I Die' list.

So I checked Ticketek. There were tickets left. Good seats as well. For $180. Ouch.

Anyone who knows me will tell you: my favourite type of music is "dad music" - i.e. if your dad likes it, then I probably will to. Eric Clapton, The Who, Paul Weller... *coughs* Duran Duran. Bruce absolutely falls into this category and so in this situation I was like a moth to a flame.

20 minutes later, after a few texts to one of the friends on Facebook and a quick chat with myself about not needing to eat for the next 2 weeks, I'd booked it. I'd just spent my entire food budget on Bruce.

Two days later, Sydney Olympic Park beckoned. I met my friends for a quick pre-gig drink, then we dashed off to the stadium to find out seats.

Exactly 27 songs, 3 hours and 12 mins later, I was in love. I'd just witnessed a 63-year-old Bruce crowd-surf, dance his way through the masses, and knee-slide across the stage - all while singing some of my favourite songs. I'd never seen anyone command a crowd so magically before.

Love. True love.

On return home, my first task was Google tickets to Hyde Park Calling for this June. It's only £70 for the day and would happily coincide with Wimbledon. Totally worth the airfare, non?

Return to Oz

Here’s a post I never thought I’d write…

When booking my flights home for Christmas, my initial worry was “will 4 weeks be too long?” Well, here I am having returned from those 4 weeks at home in England and feeling like I've been unwillingly torn away.

Strolling home from my last day at work before heading back to England, I recall walking along the harbour path as the sun began to set, the water gently lapped at the sand and rocks, and a kookaburra laughed somewhere up above in the trees. How could I leave paradise for 4 weeks during the summer?

The morning I flew home I went for a swim in the pristine waters of the tidal sea pool at the end of my apartment block. The weather was 27 degrees and clear skies. The thought of landing in ice cold London filled me with dread. In fact, at that point, if someone had said to me “you don’t have to go home now, you can wait until the British summer” I would've seriously considered it.

Fast forward those 4 weeks and something in my brain has completely switched.

Waking up on my last Friday at home in the UK, I was overwhelmed with an ominous feeling – the only way I can describe it is that feeling you get when you have an exam coming up which you know you’re not prepared for. You pray for time to slow down and hope it just magically disappears overnight. But it doesn't. I had just under 48 hours left of being part of a family and having a group of ready-made friends.

That night I went for a final drink with a few of my besties. Our chat ranged from the usual nonsense to the year ahead, my next visit home and talk of people coming to visit me. I felt truly grateful for every second I spent with them all. We said our goodbyes – and I was genuinely surprised at how sad some of them were at me leaving. In fact, it hadn't hit me until I returned home just how much people had missed me, and worse, just how much I hadn't been there for.

Stupid Australia with its not-as-great-as-the-ads-make-out-weather. Stupid ridiculously high salaries. Stupid booming economy.

Less than 24 hours later I was speeding down one of Heathrow’s runways. The plane felt heavy. (It was probably my extra bag of luggage - made up purely of Cadbury chocolate and Boots goodies.) That day I had barely been able to speak without feeling a lump up in the back of my throat. And now, on this runway, it felt like I was being ripped away from where I wanted to be. The polar opposite of the freedom I’d felt when I left of Sydney 16 months earlier.

As the plane lifted up, I focused on the lights down below – Windsor Castle dipped out of my view as we banked to the left (to the left) and I closed by blind, unable to take any more of the torment.

Maybe there would be an electrical malfunction and we’d have to land again. Just one extra day? But no such luck. The cheery pilot was soon chatting away about the smooth flight ahead of us and how Hong Kong was going to be warm and balmy when we arrived. Stupid Hong Kong.

The next several hours were spent staring at the screen in front of me trying not to completely lose the plot (I've no idea what I watched) and before I knew it I was back in my least favourite airport in the entire world. Hong Kong.

Before I knew it I was back on the plane and landing in Sydney. My heart sank as we disembarked from the plane. As the cheery hostesses welcomed us to Sydney and all I wanted to do was punch them in the face.

And here I am. Two days later, back at work, and feeling the most unsettled and weird I've ever felt in my entire life.